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Posted by: Further_Frames Original: 3/31/2006 7:37 PM Views: 28 Comments: 4 eProps: 8 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Friday, March 31, 2006

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A Crow Left of the Murder
By Incubus
Southern Girl
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Yeah, so I've had an interesting week. Last night definitely hit a high spot on my list of bad experiences. It's really hard for me to realize that some people are really and truly (pardon the french, but...) assholes. I've found that the older I get, the more I have to be straightforward, almost to the point of rudeness myself in order to make people show more respect. I can't really fathom why people find it amusing to use people, to cheapen others, and to act completely jerk-faced when things don't go their way. What's wrong with the picture? I'd hate to realize one day that I had played with, manipulated negatively, or blatantly used someone. Is there no more decency?

I keep expecting people to change. I want someone to be there to make me feel guilty about myself. I want someone to look up to and hope to be someday.

I went shopping today with two of my sorority sisters. They have been far luckier recently than I have. I made a complete fool of myself last night in front of their dates... for no reason. I was upset, and I think it was apparent why. I think they understood, actually, but my problems are still no excuse to get like that.

I hope you all are having an awesome day... let's look forward!

~Emily

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Sorry about that night and the surrounding days, and for the assholes. The older you get, the more you realize the reality of things in this world, and thus, unless you completely look the other way, things look and get stupider and ugly. Hold on, like you already are. This is the ride of life, and let's enjoy every second of it. Expectations are usually not met; people usually change only for selfish reasons.

What did you buy when you went shopping? Take some pics and show show show! I hope you're having an awesome night [it's past midnight for you and me].

Posted 4/6/2006 2:12 AM by reasoner - reply

hey em! i miss you so much. you know that little problem i had that i called you about? all fixed--and i'm still allowed to talk to him! not that they could stop me, but i like to have my parentals' approval in the matter. well, anyway--i'm sorry you're having such a bad experience at the moment. we have so much to catch up on. i haven't seen bethany since the week school started back. i feel like a terrible friend. we just keep on going our opposite ways--our schedules, friends, and interests are all different. i know that's no excuse, but oh well

Posted 4/6/2006 5:37 PM by hccguardfreak - reply

I hope everything's getting better for you...I've been very unstable lately, moody might be a better word...but that's ok...I meet Josiah's parents next week! They're getting in from Kenya on Saturday and I come back up to Starkville on Sunday! I wish you could meet him sometime! I can't remember if you did when you came, but that doesn't really count! Love you, and come visit me!

Posted 4/12/2006 4:46 PM by mamaclean - reply